I never get to bed on time :/

Okay, five minutes before I have to start reading my scriptures or I can't get to bed by nine. Life rules. I realize how incredibly moody I seem but it doesn't count because of two things: 1) I'm a teenager. 2) I haven't posted in fivedeebajillion days.

I'm so freaking excited to be starting school. I'm registered for English 1010, Math 1000, and Art 1210.
Waking up for seminary every morning is indeed exhausting and difficult. It is especially difficult considering how cold it is in the mornings. I think I can learn to love it though.
I have Christmas lights up in my room and they make me outrageously happy.
That is my current status. I've no idea how long it will last.

remember, kids!

Read this in Elder Eyring's recent talk and didn't want to forget about it :D

You show your trust in Him when
you listen with the intent to learn
and repent and then you go and do
whatever He asks. If you trust God
enough to listen for His message in
every sermon, song, and prayer in this
conference, you will find it. And if you
then go and do what He would have
you do, your power to trust Him will
grow, and in time you will be overwhelmed
with gratitude to find that
He has come to trust you

bored and ignored

Is it crazy to think I'm the only person who thinks about me? No one has done something nice for me unexpectedly in a long time. No one goes out of their way to even talk to me. I think I'm probably wrong. I have to be. Not only that, I must be pretty selfish.

I'm thinking this way because I'm so completely bored, and will be for a while. I can feel it. I'm feeling like my usual approach hasn't been as effective as I thought it would be. Thinking optimistically isn't working.

I am Spongebob.

I've been watching a lot of Spongebob lately... yeah. I also have lately been feeling pretty negative about a lot of things. I was(am) tired, unsure of where I stand in my peer group, and rather stressed about everything that needs to be done in the coming weeks. I was kinda depressed.
So, I was watching Spongebob and came across my new favorite episode. It features Spongebob being an oblivious pushover just happy to make people happy and Plankton trying to teach him to be more "assertive." I thought "My gosh. I'm Spongebob."
Crazy, I know. I won't go into details, but I found a completely unexpected identification with the sea sponge.
I too have been wanting to be more assertive. So, I found myself paying much more attention to this particular episode. I watched Spongebob(myself) turn into a maniacal bully, without out him(me) even knowing it. Yep. Sounds like me. No sense of proportion. Where is the balance between assertiveness and meekness? CONUNDRUM!

hilarity in mock racism

Elysse: "Life is like a milkshake. Sometimes you ask for strawberry, but you're given chocolate, and then you realize you wanted chocolate all along."
Ezra: "The moral of the story is; never let a Mexican make your milkshake"